It's been nearly 2 months since I started med school which is surreal. Thinking back where I was a year ago...I remember how bright eyed and eager I was to start. My journey to where I am today has been filled with many ups and downs. Being the first one in my family to enter med school, I am filled with gratitude. I could not have gotten here without their unconditional love and support. Getting into med school is an uphill battle (for most people) and I was blessed to have people behind me pushing me to achieve my goal. No one can do this alone, which is why I decided to blog about my journey. I will be transparent as I can about what I did to get here and all the things that I wish I could have done better. I hope we can connect and many inspire you to join this path because we need more black women in medicine and I am excited to become one.
What I've learned in my 2 months in Med school:
Imposter syndrome is real: being in a concentrated environment where everyone is aiming for the same goal, and is very WHITE....you often question your worth. Thinking whether or not I deserve to be here? That might seem harsh, but that is the reality, and it was for me during the first week. However, once I got the hang of things, I held my ground. Because I knew all classes I struggled through in undergrad, extracurriculars, and hours of shadowing I did to be here was for a reason and I sure as hell deserved to be here.
I'm actually smart: I don't mean to sound arrogant or boastful. I'm the type of person who always questions her ability, which is not healthy, but I do it. And coming in I had this irrational fear of failing my first exam. This probably ties in with the imposter syndrome because before med school you hear people tell you how difficult it is, which is true, but what you don't hear too often is that its doable.
You got time: I remember in undergrad I was paired up with a first year med student and the first thing I asked her was "do you have a life?", hopefully not in a negative way. I was so curious about how med students have time outside of school. Time is precious and in med school you want to be very diligent in how you use it. I'll be honest, I've had a difficult time figuring out how to fit the things I like to do, like fashion design. Seeing that it's only been a couple of months, I'm not too worried about it now. But I hope to work on this.
Thanks for reading my first post! I'll try to incorporate both fashion design and medicine!
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